Breaking the Eat-Repent-Repeat Cycle

I can’t take credit for the title or the subject of this blog post because I read it on CalorieCount.com but it struck a chord with me.   Michelle May, M.D. asked several questions about eating behaviors that seemed to have been patterned after many of my own, things like “Do you think about food and eating more than you think you should?” and “Do you often eat when you are bored, stressed, sad, lonely, or angry?” Ad celebrating, happy, tired and breathing to that list and it just about sums me up. 

Her conclusion is that simply “dieting” alone wouldn’t get the job done for people like me. She went on to offer 7 steps for achieving greater success with weight loss. They may same like same-old-same-old but for some reason they resonated with me today. So as not to steal her work, the link to her article is at the bottom of this post but she inspired me to take several steps of my own.

•   I will not totally restrict my favorite foods as this will only make me crave them more. I will carefully choose when to indulge in “those” foods. 
•  I will pay attention to that little voice in my head trying to tell me when I’ve had enough instead of “cleaning my plate.” 
•  When I am tempted to eat, I will challenge myself to discover the reason why…am I truly hungry? Is it just appetite? Was there an emotional trigger? 
• Most importantly, I will not demand perfection of myself because that only sets me up to fail.

I am sure there are more things I could be doing to improve my health but as the blog’s title suggests, I am taking baby steps to wellness. It took me years to get this way. It will take years to correct.

DR. May's article

Apnea and Me

If you’ve been following along, you’ll know that I may, and probably do, have sleep apnea. Apnea is the short cessation of breathing. During sleep this can occur hundreds of times. It is often accompanied by snoring, usually loud snoring as those around me claim. But snoring alone is not the only symptom. When a person stops breathing, the brain sends a message to make them cough or something similar which wakens them to some degree so they start breathing again.

One of the bigger concerns is the strain this can put on the heart over time. The other consequence is fatigue.

Oh for nap!

For years I have gotten by on about 7 hours of sleep. Until the last couple of years, that has always been enough for me. I wake bright eyed and bushy tailed. But over the last couple of years, a change has crept into the quality of my sleep and that change has been the apnea.

Now instead of feeling rested in the morning, I often feel like I haven’t slept. Sadly, sometimes that is the case. I wake many times during the night. I am consciously aware of every time I turn over in my sleep. Sometimes when I wake, I cannot get back to sleep for a long time. I am aware that I have just coughed. My husband says at other times, it sounds like I am choking and I don’t wake up at all.

During the day, moments of inactivity-of which there are few! – are met with a sudden and overwhelming fatigue and desire to nap. Some evenings, I fall asleep watching TV as early as 7 or 8 o’clock. If I stop moving or focusing on something specific, I can fall asleep. My energy is zapped all the time and I have to pick and choose what I can get done in a day. Usually exercising isn’t among them because it will wipe me out.

I chalked much of this up to getting older and getting heavier. At 267.5, almost anything I do, leaves me short of breath and tired. It wasn’t until, as a writer, I did an article for a client on CPAP machines that I put the pieces together and saw my doctor. 

She said what I describe is a classic case of sleep apnea but in order to get treatment, I need a sleep study, something my insurance company was reluctant to approve. Finally they have though, and I get to go on the 24^th of this month. I am hoping with the official diagnosis and the CPAP machine to treat it, my husband and I will both sleep better and I will reacquaint myself with my former energy levels and slimmer self. I’ll keep you “posted.”