Tuesday, April 5, 2011

“D” Is for Determination

The definition of determination is “a decision arrived at by thought and investigation,” according to How often have I said ‘I am determined to do this,’ with regards to my weight loss? Countless times. Sometimes it is a mantra I recite daily, hourly even.
Certainly I have investigated the situation. I have looked in the mirror. I have attempted to put on clothing that has become too snug. I have stepped on the dreaded scale and seen the proof. I have compared these oh-so-scientific findings to the charts and graphs that taunt me everywhere, telling me I am overweight. The handwriting is on the wall or the computer screen as the case may be.
I have thought about it. I have focused, mused and obsessed about it. At times, my struggle to find balance in my life, a balance that allows me to enjoy eating without depravation, has been my only thought. I guess by the dictionary definition, I am determined. So why have I not succeeded?
What this definition of determination does not include is commitment. We can realize there is a problem. We can do the research, the planning and even make the decision that “something has to be done.” Until we are committed, determination alone is not enough.
I am three-and-a-half months into the New Year and have only 9.6 meager pounds lost to show for myself. While I tell others that any weight loss is good, as a means of being encouraging, for me, I am dissatisfied. With 115 pounds to lose when I started this, I could have done more by now. So though I have been determined all along, it is time to examine my commitment to that determination.


iZombie said...

great, great!
"D" is the Word...
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dporter said...

I need to take baby steps for you've inspired me to, like you, at least be heading in the right direction, even if it does seem like a small step.

Tracey said...

Excellent, excellent point. I have been struggling to lose 20 pounds for the past 5 years or so. You are absolutely right that determination means nothing without commitment.

Amy Brantley said...

Very good post. I don't want to think about how far I would have come if I could have grasped onto commitment before now. In fact, I never would have gotten as big as I did. I've been trying to lose weight since middle school. Keep searching, praying and moving forward. Once you find commitment, you'll never look back ((hugs))

Joanne said...

I hear ya! just when we make a little headway...our inner monologue starts to say "eat that cookie!" great post. Blessings, Joanne

Theresa Wiza said...

I think losing weight is probably one of the hardest things to do. We all have to eat. Just today, after having a couple of tacos, some potatoes olé, and then some ice cream and brownies to celebrate one of my daughter's birthdays, I was STILL hungry. She's pregnant and I'M the one who will gain weight ;)

sema said...

Wishing you success in your commitment and determination to lose weight.

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